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A New Abstract Painting titled “Searching”

The painting “Searching” is about the new world we are now in and how we are searching for different things. We are searching for a sense of place, dealing with loss and sorrow, creating new routines and searching for answers. I wanted to make a painting, an abstract painting, to mark this moment in time. To help myself with my feelings of searching and to create a conversation about it too. This new world is hard to get a grasp of. We have to adapt quickly and that is hard.

I decided to paint my ideas and feelings as an abstract gestural painting. I decided to use three colors that I have long been fascinated with: black, white and gold.

The first stage of Searching
Acrylic on watercolor paper

I liked it to a point but I wasn’t loving it. I created 10 paintings over the last few days but there was something missing. So I turned to digital.

Digital might seem like an unusual next step but if I can make a painting better with my favorite medium I am going to do it. It went from an acrylic painting to a mixed media painting just like that. Two hours later and I was excited by what I created. I used Procreate and my custom brushes for this one. Once the collector chooses the size, it will come to life on canvas. I am looking forward to picking out the canvas for this piece. I like to be involved in every aspect of the painting. There will only be one created, even though there are two sizes to choose from .

But doesn’t that make it a print?

It would, if there were more than one of these being made. It will also be enhanced, so it has texture too. I will be using the same tools I used to create the acrylic painting.

“Searching” in the final mixed media form.
It will be on canvas once someone chooses to buy it. Incidentally I will have a small one made to check to make sure the colors and texture is accurate.
In the entry over a side table

Searching (small) 27” x 36” $3800.00

“Searching” digital phase two

The last phase is secret and no one will get that information out of me. Anyways, it is long and tedious and takes me hours to finish a painting. It is worth it to me because it makes the painting look great.

In the dining room

Searching (large) 45” x 60” $10,800

There is one part of this painting that isn’t abstract and that is all the dots. The dots represent all the people we have lost and I wanted to pay tribute to them in my own way.

This was a painting that took a while because nothing was happening over the last week. I was simply stuck. I hit a wall. So I would just keep going back to the studio. A lot of people, including artists don’t like to stay in the studio if nothing happens. For me, it is a muscle that you have to use daily if you want to see results. Thanks for stopping by.


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Crashing Wave, the tale of a Heavy Wave

Crashing Wave, A Journey

Crashing Wave 20 x 20” Made of concrete… well digitally anyways
Crashing Wave looks like it is made out of the impossible material of concrete. The paint strokes look like stucco. She is a Heavy Wave.


This is a personal wave. A wave about my body image and how it has changed.

The novel coronavirus has been a terrible gift we have all received. On December 16th 2019, I came down with the flu and copd and I am just now getting getting over it in May 20th of 2020. My doctor’s still can’t figure out what exactly what it was but the investigation continues. Since I am finally getting better, I am not that interested anymore. I just thank my lucky stars that it wasn’t the coronavirus. I should know, I have been tested three times.
What were my symptoms?
Basically, I couldn’t breathe or talk. Or move that much. I had a fever in December and I lost my sense of taste.  The more I rest the better I feel. Resting is nearly impossible for someone who was jogging and lifting weights in early December 2019. Now, it’s May 2020 and I have begun taking 10 min walks. I am moving around though, so I am happy about that.
But that isn’t what this wave is about. This wave is about weight gain. “Crashing Wave” is meant to reflect on my ballooning weight and also on everyone’s battle with weight gain, in our new normal. I get it, it’s easy to add that extra 10, 20 or 30 pounds from inactivity and feeling overwhelmed.
For me, when I start gaining weight, I usually start eating more salads, taking long walks or go on a plein air painting mission. What have you found that works?  Do you walk? Do yoga? Or, are you having a hard time like me? Sometimes, it’s just too much.  Right now, my lungs aren’t ready for anything that rigorous. Mild little walks is where it’s at right now. I could eat salads but the length of time it takes to make a salad that is tasty is still beyond me. So, raw fruit it is!  

That’s crazy

Up until May 20th, I was planning my attack on the stairs. Usually with a rest break or two along the way, with my new friend – the inhaler. Yeah, it’s been bad. The one good thing is that I started painting my digital wave series before I got sick, on December 12th. That has kept me sane. The release of working on a large, ever evolving series, has been my escape from the coronavirus.  Now that I am well, I am starting to finish them.  I am now focusing on finishing 25 paintings.  The next step will be to look for a place to show them.  Ideally, I would like to find a place to show them together.  I think that would be really fun for people to see.  
I started counting them but when the number went beyond 200, it got a little scary, so I stopped counting! These times are so frightening. I find myself  eating comfort food, to rally my spirits. I am also giving myself permission to lose the weight and balance my emotional needs.
I have started to control myself and I have lost 10 lbs. Last night, I wanted to make a second tri-tip sandwich and then I remembered how tight my jeans are. So instead, I drank water and ate a teensy weensy pile of baked beans. I ate them slowly and before I knew it I was full. Yeah! I am doing it.
So? What do you do?
Seriously, I need to crib from your notes. So, what are you doing in ” the new normal”? Do you exercise regularly or think about exercising? Do you stretch, run or swim? Well for me, work is my coping mechanism. Everyday I sit in bed or on the couch and work away from 2pm – 2am on my digital wave series. It has kept my panic, frustration and saddness at bay but that’s me. How do you cope?
Thanks for reading the story behind the heavy wave made of concrete.